Have you ever felt like something you didn’t expect to happen, actually happened and you couldn’t believe it? Well that’s sort of what I’m feeling right now. And the denial I meant here isn’t the one where you pretend like nothing happened. It’s more like pretending that I’m okay even though I know that I’m most certainly not.
But maybe this is a good denial, because if I whined about how I really feel about it, then maybe I would feel worse. And I can’t afford to have that kind of trouble, especially in this hectic time when I need to focus more on school and everything inside it.
It's just that, sometimes, when I try not to think about it, the thought just suddenly comes up to my mind. I'd seriously rather be thinking about how hard high school is than this problem.
But maybe this is a good denial, because if I whined about how I really feel about it, then maybe I would feel worse. And I can’t afford to have that kind of trouble, especially in this hectic time when I need to focus more on school and everything inside it.
It's just that, sometimes, when I try not to think about it, the thought just suddenly comes up to my mind. I'd seriously rather be thinking about how hard high school is than this problem.
...a distraction.
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