this is what happens and what has happened

Yes, I do.

Okay so there are some things that needs to be explained here.

1. I'm talking about you
2. Yes, you, my friend
3. Either you have known that but pretend to be innocent
4. Or you really don't know what's going on

Either way, I don't think you feel the same way. But that's okay, you know? I mean liking someone doesn't have to mean that that person should like you back. And besides, I'm not one of those teens who would be totally desperate when their crush doesn't like them back. I like you and there's no "and" or "but" following after that sentence. I just like you.

You might not have noticed but it's always been like this. You, asking me who my crush is. Me, trying to hide the fact that you yourself are the one that I've been talking about...... it never changes. It's like someone has written a script for this, um, thing and the story would start and end the same as before. It's stupid to fall for the same mistake (or person, in my case) but I don't know why I'm willing to take that risk.

So anyway, I'm blaming you for this. LOL. Because if you haven't been acting so nicely to me, this feeling would never grow again. I don't know whether you really are that nice to everybody or you're nice to me because you feel sorry for me. Argh. Either way I really hope those are not the reasons.

Like today, you were sick and you asked me to accompany you to ask for permission to go home. And then you said thank you to me. And I don't know. When you said those words and looked me in the eyes, I kind of froze. It's like I don't want you to look the other way. And also this morning when I was doing a presentation, you raised your hand to ask a question about something. When you asked the question, you were looking at me and I tried so effing hard not to smile. So after a couple of questions to be written, I answered yours. And the whole time I explained it, you looked at me straight in the eyes from the beginning to the end.

This is exactly one of the many reasons why I don't want to be in Year 11 just yet.

"You're the sky that I fell through and I remember the view whenever I'm holding you." -If My Heart was a House, Owl City